Have you ever had one of those days? You know the ones. You just wake up on the wrong side of the bed and it already feels like the longest day ever?
That’s me today.
So what does that mean? Instead of holding all of these little feelings inside, I’m going to turn on some Backstreet Boys and word vomit these feelings out to you guys. I apologize in advance (for the post and for the disgusting image I probably gave you of word vomit).
I’m definitely one of those people that thinks to much (who, me?!) All of my friends that know me well are probably shaking their heads going, “Duh, Jessie.” Fortunately for all of you readers of mine, you might not fully know the capacity of that. My poor friends get the brunt of it via IM, SnapChat, text, Skype … I’m the worst.
^^ My sister found that quote and I think it’s very suiting for both of us, just in different ways.
When I’m sad? I’m REALLY sad.
When I’m excited? Girl, you better watch out because I’m going to be bouncing all over the place.
When I’m in love? I’m head over heels.
When I’m mad? Get out the way.
When I’m scared? There’s no reasoning with me.
When I have a crush? I crush hard.
I know all of these things about myself and I don’t necessarily think they’re always a bad thing. I get to feel all things in ways that some people can’t and no one ever has to wonder how I’m feeling because trust me, you’ll know. Because I’m usually a pretty positive person, this “personality trait” of mine can be spectacular because I’m constantly smiling, dancing or bopping around to life.
But there’s also a flaw – I get hurt very easily and sometimes I can’t turn my brain off. Passive aggressive statements sting. Little off-comments you didn’t think I’d catch, I catch. Boys toying with my emotions gets me all in a tizzy. Since I’m one of those souls that can’t keep everything in otherwise I’ll explode (hence the blog), my friends get the brunt of it. I can tell when I’m annoying them. They tell me to just “let it go”, “don’t think so much”, “let things just happen” or “don’t worry about it” and I can try my damndest to do that, but it’s really hard for me. I’m naturally going to over-think that text. You can bet your butts I’m going to think way too far into the future. It’s hard to keep my feet planted on the ground.
I don’t know how many times I’ve said the words, “I wish my brain just had an off button – just for a minute.”
So anyways, this long-winded all over the place post comes up because a) I didn’t know what else to write about and this was on my mind and b) it’s something I’m “sort of” working on and “sort of” coming to terms with. Will I always be an over-thinker? Yep, probably. Will I always make things bigger than they need to be? Yep, probably. But that’s okay. Everyone has their little quirks, and that is one of mine.
Any other over-thinkers or over-feelers (is that a word??) out there? Or is it just little old me? 🙂