Hey, hey! It’s been awhile. As you may have noticed, my posts have fell off … as have my YouTube videos. In fact, really the only thing I’ve been keeping up with is my Instagram and Snapchat. And it’s not because I’m too busy (at least, not this week).
Have you ever just felt off? I cannot pull myself out of this funk. I go in them from time-to-time and I always struggle coming out of them. I filmed a YouTube video three times and deleted all three of them because I’m just “not there”. I’m bummed about a few situations in my life and people’s lives I care about. I’ve been having nightmares because I’m stressed so I haven’t been sleeping. I’m sick of never having any time to myself. I’m tired of getting home from working and try to start on my third job, but I can’t put my mind in it because I’m thinking about someone that’s treating me poorly. Or thinking about how messy my apartment is even though I clean it by myself every single day.
I’m also irritated with how much of a victim I’m sounding like up there ^^ and I’m over that as well.
So with that said, here are a few favorites this week in hopes to listen to my own advice and think positively when I’m feeling down.
First, amazing friends. Seriously. I basically will ignore everyone when I’m having a rough time and thankfully I have a few friends that pick up on that. Brooke makes me talk at work. Amy and Lindsay attack me on the regular via text, email and Snapchat. Kim is just always there for me. Julie texts me through how I’m feeling. <— I miss this one.
Second, dressing up. Always makes me feel better.
Third, that my favorite YouTube couple is back together. But it’s my favorite because I just love love. I mean, I can’t find it, so I hope other people do.
Sometimes I’m a little too interested in other people’s lives (that’s a story for another day), but I absolutely LOVE Christian and Nikki – separately – but together? Adore. And they did vlogs in Hawaii that I watched last night. Just the way he looks at her. And how happy she is. Makes me hopeful that maybe someday someone will look like that at me.
(And also look like Christian Guzman. And also I’ll have Nikki’s butt. And also I’ll be in Maui.) 😉
And finally, working out. This morning I did a HARD lower body workout + 20-minutes SS cardio on the stair master. I came out looking like a drowned rat, but I felt SO much better. So I went home and apologized to the cats for being so mean to them this morning. (In my defense, they start scratching at my door at 4:30 a.m. to eat and it drives me CRAZY.)
Now on to the rest of the time! Time to look at life with a different perspective, remember I’m still SO damn lucky.
And maybe also take a nap.
What are you doing this weekend?
What are some of your favorites?