105 Questions

I saw this little post over on Taralynn’s blog and since I’ve gotten a teeny bit more traffic since my weight loss blog/vlog, I figured I’d give this little survey a go. Plus, again, we all know how I feel about surveys. If you’re looking for a fun one to do, I suggest this one!

105 Questions Survey

  1. What are your favorite smells?
    – Roses or any fresh flower
    – This specific men’s cologne that I only know when I smell it that my ex boyfriend used to wear
    – The ocean
    – Candles with cinnamon or apple usually get me (heyyyyy, fall candles!)
  2. Can you go a whole day without caffeine?
    HAHAHA. No. I used to be able to, but ever since I started working out in the AM, I’m screwed.
  3. Who knows you more than anyone else?
    Is it weird that not many people truly know all of me? #AquariusProblems So, probably my life coach, my sister (when she listens to me) or Saige. Though Saige texted me the other day and knew nothing about my new part-time job so … whoops.
  4. What song did you last listen to?
    I’m not sure, really. I’ve been singing a song to myself all morning, though. “I’m so tired … hey, hey, hey … so tired” It’s gonna be my new single.
  5. Do you have a crush on anyone?
    Um … No? I mean, there’s a couple of guys that I smile at when I get a text or snapchat or instagram like from. Does that count? 😉 #foreveralone
  6. Who is your celebrity crush?
    Always and forever —> Zefron.
  7. Most romantic moment?
    Ohhhh, another toughie. Honestly, I have no idea. I haven’t found a romantic guy, yet. What the heck. Probably my middle school/high school boyfriends Chris & Randy. They were always super sweet. I remember Chris made me a “mixed cd” with all the songs that reminded him of me on it. So, maybe that? He also got me jewelry and teddy bears all the time. Come to think of it, why did I break up with him?! (just kidding, he’s getting married to an awesome chick soon. Oh, 4th grade boyfriends …)
  8. If you could choose one color to wear for a whole year, what color would you choose?
    Red. I lovvvvve red.
  9. Do you cook often?
    Now I do since I’m back to tracking macros!
  10. What was the last film you watched? Did you like it?
    Harry Potter & The Sorcerer’s Stone and OF COURSE I LIKED IT.
  11. Can you sew?
    Nope
  12. What is your favorite fruit?
    Pineapple from Hawaii. Hawaii Trip
  13. Are you health conscious?
    Yes, though I need to fit in some more fruit and vegetables. I suck at eating fruits and vegetables, to be honest. It’s just given the choice, I’ll take rice as a carb over an apple. I can’t help it! I’ve been living on rice and protein.
  14. Do you curse a lot?
    I curse like a sailor. In fact, if I ever say “heck” in front of you, it’s because I’m not comfortable around you yet. 😉
  15. When was the last time you had a pint of beer?
    Dublin <3Guinness Storehouse
  16. Is there a certain food you often crave for no reason?
    Chips and salsa. Always.
  17. Where was your last vacation?
    Honolulu, Hawaii
  18. Do you shave your pits?
    Yes?
  19. What’s the last thing you’ve done that was crazy?
    I don’t really “do” crazy, but maybe driving to Minneapolis to see a guy I liked (I saw him for less than 12-hours)? Flying to Hawaii by myself (because I’m chicken)? Meet people I’ve only met online for my birthday? Then again, I’m meeting two people I’ve only met “online” this Thursday so … (<— P.S. My friend Brooke gets SO mad at me when I do this, especially on my own in a city I don’t know. Whoopsie.)
    – Party animal, I know. 😉
  20. Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how did it happen?
    Two toes in high school. Broke it because I was throwing a temper tantrum at my mom and kicked a chair. Right before cheerleading nationals, I might add.
  21. How do you like your eggs?
    In chocolate chip cookies.
  22. What was your last argument about and who with?
    Had a guy scream at me during move-in, does that count?
  23. Are you satisfied with the way your life is right now?
    I don’t think I’m ever satisfied. I’m always looking to grow and better myself. With that said, I’m happy with how far I’ve come, but I’m definitely ready for bigger and better things.
  24. Do you drink enough water?
    No. I struggle with water.
  25. When was the last time you ate at Burger King?
    I have no idea …
  26. Do you prefer the beach or the mountains?
    Beach, but I wouldn’t turn down the mountains.
    Hawaii Trip
  27. How do you usually feel when you wake up on a morning?
    Tired and cranky and ready to throw the cats out the window.
  28. When was the last time you wore high heeled shoes?
    Last week Monday – right before move-in.
  29. Vodka or wine?
    Vodka, but I do like sweet wines. I’m just not a lover of alcohol, so I don’t drink too much.
  30. How often do you cry?
    Very often. I cry at everything.
  31. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
    Of course!
  32. Can you wire a plug?
    Nope.
  33. Do you wear socks to bed?
    No way! I hate that feeling!
  34. What is currently bugging you?
    – I’m really tired
    – Passive aggressive Instagram posts
    – Players
    – And my head itches 😉
  35. Where were you when you got your first period?
    Class! I remember being so embarrassed when I went to the bathroom and so confused. Went straight to the nurse.
  36. Can you change a car tire?
    hahaha. No. I wish, but that’s just not information I retain.
  37. Have you met more than ten celebrities?
    Nope.
  38. Do you sleep naked?
    No, though I hate wearing any type of pants/shorts/leg restrictions so it’s usually just a tank top or something. Until it gets freezing outside!
  39. What was the best music gig you’ve ever attended?
    Trans-Siberian Orchestra, every time.
  40. Have you ever had sexual feelings for anyone you follow?
    Um, no?
  41. Do you think Benedict Cumberbatch is hot?
    Not really.
  42. Favorite Disney princess?
    Ariel.
  43. Favorite city?
    San Francisco or Dublin. (I need to go spend more time there…)
    Dublin
  44. Can you drive?
    Yes, though some may question how well …
  45. Cigarettes or alcohol?
    Neither, but alcohol if I had to choose.
  46. Exercise or healthy eating?
    Exercise!
  47. What are you looking forward to?
    Thursday – I love Chicago. <3
  48. What do you plan on doing with your life a decade from now?
    I’m hoping to be married, or in a happy relationship. With at least 15 dogs. 😉 Really, though … I just want to be happy.
  49. Would you rather go back in time or remain where you are in terms of the time of your life?
    As much as I’d love to correct some mistakes I’ve made or people I’ve wrongfully trusted, I’d still rather stay where I am.

    GUYS THIS IS LONG ARE YOU STILL HERE??

  50. What do you crave for desserts?
    Sour candy, frozen yogurt, Chili’s lava cake, chocolate …
  51. Who are your style icons?
    Lauren Conrad, basically every fit chick on Instagram …
  52. Do you believe in an afterlife?
    Yep!
  53. What do you fear most about death?
    Everything. It’s my biggest fear.
  54. Extrovert or Introvert?
    Definitely an extrovert, but I still need some time alone to recharge every now and again.
  55. Do you own any pets?
    Oliver, the stupid ass cat that woke me up at 3:30 a.m.
  56. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
    Um … my mom accidentally called me instead of my sister on Friday.
  57. Favorite TV shows?
    I don’t really watch tv.
  58. Do you prefer to text or call?
    Text, though if it’s an important story or a guy I like, I’d prefer a call or Facetime.
  59. Morning or night?
    If I could make my own schedule, it would be night. But since I can’t and have responsibilities, mornings it is.
  60. Do you like tacos?
    YES
  61. Do you enjoy walks?
    Yes, it’s actually one of the biggest stress relievers for me. Walking by the water is key.
  62. Are you a frequent user of Facebook?
    I’m on it a lot out of habit and my job, but I prefer Instagram.
  63. Do you watch animated shows still?
    Not really.
  64. What’s your “lucky” number?
    23!
  65. Are you scared of anything?
    I’m actually afraid of a lot of things. It stops me from doing things I want to sometimes, which is not good!
  66. Any phobias?
    I don’t think so. I do reallllly hate the sound of Styrofoam coming out of a cardboard box. Or forks scratching on a plate (I’m cringing right now). Or bees. I HATE BEES.
  67. Big mac or big whopper?
    I like both, but I do like whoppers. I haven’t had one in years.
  68. Do you like to play board games?
    Yes!
  69. Would you eat a live spider for one million dollars?
    It would kill me, but YES. Pay of my student debt.
  70. Would you forgive someone for cheating?
    I don’t think so. I’d like to say I’d try, but I’ve been played so many times in life that once you lose my trust, it’s gone.
  71. Do you believe in aliens?
    I mean, I just can’t believe that we’re the only creatures in this entire universe.
  72. Are you a grumpy person?
    Lately, yes, actually. I’m so overwhelmed, tired and I’m sick of living here so sometimes that gets to me.
  73. Are you a worry wart?
    Yes …
  74. Do you like having your picture taken?
    Sometimes! More than I did years ago.
  75. Do you like cotton candy?
    Sure, it’s good! I’d never go out of my way to buy it, though.
  76. Do you believe in ghosts?
    Yes, but that scares me!
  77. What’s the weirdest flavor of ice cream you’ve tried?
    I haven’t really tried anything too weird! I don’t eat ice cream very often. Lactose intolerant problems.
  78. Do you like math?
    No, but I do like calculating macros.
  79. Do you remember lyrics easily?
    Not anymore. My head is still filled with BSB, NSYNC and Spice Girls so there’s no more room!
  80. What was/is your favorite school subject?
    I loved band and English.
  81. Are you allergic to anything?
    No, but I do have a few intolerances. Like fake people … 😉
  82. Do you like rainy days?
    Not usually. They put me in a grumpy mood. BUT when I had a boyfriend and could cuddle on the couch with him on a rainy day … definitely didn’t mind that. 🙂
  83. Do you like pie?
    I’m actually not much of a pie person. I know, I know, I know.
  84. Do you lift weights?
    Yes, girl. All. Damn. Day.
    Lift and be lifted
  85. Would you like children in the future?
    If you ask me today, I say no. Maybe that’ll change someday, maybe it won’t.
  86. Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?
    Closed because monsters.
  87. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
    Not usually – it’s not very good and I usually use a whole one for all of my hair.
  88. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
    Maybe … #college
  89. Have you ever peed in the woods?
    I grew up in the middle of nowhere. Of course I have!
  90. Do you still watch cartoons?
    No.
  91. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
    Nope!
  92. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
    For a lot of money. Like, a lot. Like pay off all of my debt, all of my parents debt, all of my sisters debt, buy me nice things, put billions in a bank account-type of money. Just bein’ real!
  93. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
    Does a card count?
  94. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
    Nope! Knock on wood.
  95. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
    A flower, a red crayon, princess, witch …
  96. Sing in the car?
    Yeppp.
  97. Ever used a gun?
    Nope.
  98. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
    Sorta, but they’re still fun to watch!
  99. Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart?
    Target!
  100. Ever won a spelling bee?
    No.
  101. Ever had plastic surgery?
    Not yet! I’d like a boob job, though.
  102. Which are better black or green olives?
    Black!
  103. Do you want to get married?
    Yes, I do!
  104. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
    Of course I would! Because I’m not going to just stand there and watch?
  105. What is one thing you wish had zero calories?
    Chips and salsa. <3

Whew, that was long. And semi picture-less. I’m surprised if you’ve made it through, but it was fun to write. 🙂

Answer some of the questions below or, if you have a blog, blog about it!

I’m a dreamer

I’m going to *try* (emphasis on the word try) not to make this post a rambling one, but … well, it’s Thinking Out Loud time with Amanda so I feel like I’m allowed to. 😉

Okay, so based on the title you might know where I’m going with this, but I’m kind of a dreamer. LIES. I am TOTALLY a dreamer. The only problem with that is that I’m a negative nancy, too, so I tend to knock down my own dreams before I start them.

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For example, I’ve wanted to move to California since I first visited there in 2009. I fell in absolute love, but I’ve never truly tried to get out there. Sure, I applied for some jobs here and there at huge companies like Facebook and Twitter where EVERYONE applies, but I never truly tried. Because I’m afraid of failing, so I don’t even try. HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?!

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So, my sister got me hooked on watching YouTube videos starting with the CTFxC a little over two years ago and I’ve grown to subscribing to over 50 channels on the YouTubes. I mainly watch vlogs, fitness and beauty channels, but I’m known to get sucked into all kinds of other things. I just love it. No Netflix for me. I rarely watch television (which is good because I don’t have cable anymore).

After watching videos for over a year, I started getting this weird feeling like I should start a channel, but kept pushing it to the back of my head. Who would want to watch me? I don’t have a good camera. I don’t even know what I’d talk about. Would people find me relateable? Would they find me funny? If they do find me, will they make fun of me? But some of my friends roll their eyes at me when I bring it up, so maybe it’s a dumb idea.

See how every single one of those thoughts up there is negative? 

So after a year of convincing myself that I wasn’t good enough (and a year of my sister telling me that I was) I put up my first video last week and actually had a few comments of people telling me they liked my stuff! Granted, a few of them were there just looking for subscribers, but others really enjoyed it. And you know what’s most important?

I enjoyed making it. I enjoyed editing it. I thought I was funny. I was excited.

Today I put up my second ever YouTube video and had even more fun than before. I didn’t edit out as much stuff, I made a graphic for it and I was excited to finally get it up. If you’re into the YouTube thing (or just LOVE ME) you can check it out below.

And you know what? I’m proud of me. GOOD JOB, ME! Am I still afraid of all those negative things I said a few paragraphs up? Oh HELLS yes. But it’s something I’ve wanted to try for forever – almost a visual extension of this blog here – and I’m so happy I did. Maybe people will like me and start to follow me, or maybe they won’t. Maybe I’ll start to hate it and quit. Or maybe I’ll love it and keep on doin’ it for a fun little outlet from the craziness of life.

I’m just happy that I pushed the negative thoughts aside and took a leap of faith. Maybe this is the start of a new way of thinking for me. I have all this excitement – maybe I’ll even let a guy take me on a date!

HAHAHAHAA.

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🙂

Thanks for reading! Do you ever struggle with negative thoughts that hold you back from something?

 

Memorial Day Weekend Recap

Hi, my name is Jessie and I’m pretty sure I’m not even fully awake. Is it illegal to drive somewhere on two to three hours of sleep? Don’t answer that.

Anyways, let’s talk about weekends! This is going up a day late because technically this is my Monday (then again, technically it’s my Wednesday since I only have a three day week at the college this week). Too many technicallys in one sentence. Moving on … (Linking up with the wonderful Katie)

First of all, let me say thank God for SnapChat because apparently that’s the only way I document my life. I should just make a blog post out of my SC feed. It’s honestly about 99% of the photos that you’ll see.

Friday my boss let us out an hour early (YES) so I went home and … napped. HA. After a short nap, I took off to spin class and then met my sister out at Old Chicago for dinner. We ran into VS for the 7 for $25 sale and then the rest of the night we spent hanging out on the couch and going to bed early. #partyanimals

Saturday I woke up, headed to the gym for an early morning workout and then my dad came into town! We chatted about our Ireland trip (which just turned into me getting anxiety because this trip is so overwhelming to plan!) and then headed to Red Robin for lunch where my dad tried to explain boys to me (he wasn’t much help – just told me “Remember, guys are stupid” – thanks, Dad.) and then we hung out at my apartment for a little while longer. After that, my sister and I headed off to see Pitch Perfect 2 (a second time for me) and then I dragged her out for a walk. After our walk, we had pizza breadsticks and then I headed out to Celebrate De Pere (basically a little baby fair) with a friend. Still no photographic evidence – apparently my SC stories didn’t start until Sunday.

So, Sunday! I woke up late, watched some tv with my sister and headed out for the day.

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Our first stop was HuHot because I was slightly hungover (seriously Jessie – TWO DRINKS #old) and wanted some serious sodium. Ha.

HuHot

After HuHot, we headed off to see yet another movie (and eat yet another $10 piece of candy and soda). This time we saw Hot Pursuit. I heard awful reviews for it, but it had me giggling the whole time so I thought it was pretty good. Granted it’s not going to win any Oscars, but that wasn’t something I was too worried about. The day was nasty with tons of rain storms, so we just stayed inside the rest of the night, watching fireworks from my bedroom window.

Monday rolled around and I spent most of the morning catching up on my YouTube subscriptions and trying not to whine about the humidity. I finally decided to try to tame my frizz ball humidity hair with my flat iron and put on something besides an over-sized t-shirt.

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Maxi skirts – for when you want to look put together, but really just haven’t shaved your legs.

My sister and I headed off to the mall to look for a jean jacket for her (no luck) and I tried on a ton of a clothes and then had buyer’s remorse and didn’t buy anything. So, normal shopping trip for the two of us.

After that, I dragged my sister out for an hour-long walk since it was nice out.

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I wanted to take advantage of the little bit of warm weather with no rain, so we headed off to Hagemeister Park to sit on the patio.

Patio Life

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How I’m not completely sunburned, I have no idea.

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The waitress talked me into the “Ultimate Bloody Mary” (mostly because she told me it came with beef sticks) but this whole “chaser” thing was not a true chaser. I was not expecting two full drinks!

Chaser Pecan SaladDon’t you worry, I handled that bloody mary like a champ. 🙂

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And then I spent the rest of the evening not sleeping because it was so dang humid in my apartment. I need one of those stand-alone air condition units, I think. Otherwise this is going to be another longgggg summer of no sleep.

How was your Memorial Day weekend? Did you do anything fun?

Random Day in Pictures

Tuesday! I made it to TUESDAY!

First of all, thank you everyone for the sweet comments I got on the blog, Instagram and text. I appreciate all the love. 🙂 After a much needed nine hours of sleep last night, I’m right back in my normal healthy positive mindset and read to take on this week!

Yesterday started out with me working at the gym, half asleep. Thankfully members at that gym are super sweet and talkative, so my 3.5 hour shift flew by. Here’s photo evidence of that that you already saw yesterday.

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My day started out a little cranky, I’ll be honest. The girl that came in to relieve me at the gym was late, so that sent me into a panic to get dressed as fast as possible and get to the college. Once I got here, I was bombarded with emails and questions about my weekend (which just got me all riled up) and my anxiety set in again. So I took a slight break and found this on Facebook which just put a smile on my face.

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Finally it was lunch time so I headed home to eat lunch (aka 10 cookies) and then headed over to Dunkin Donuts for some happy juice.

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After lunch and taking down that coffee, I headed over to our new science building on campus for the opening ceremony! Such a beautiful building – I’m so happy it’s finished.

After the ceremony, Michelle texted me a picture from Hawaii and I got INSANELY jealous because I don’t think there’s anywhere I would’ve rather been than on that beach with my best friend, forgetting about all the things making me anxious.

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I mean, REALLY?!

I then spent the rest of the afternoon doing very important things …

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I promise I did actually get some work done yesterday. 😉

After work I went home, ate more cookies, ate dinner and headed back out to run some errands. Managed to spend way too much money at Target (AGAIN) and then went to the gym for a little bit. Meaning I did about 20 minutes of leg workouts before I realized that my body was just way too tired and I needed to go to bed.

Once home, I took a shower, ate more damn cookies, texted back and forth with some of my favorite people and hung out with my sister. I don’t remember much after 9:45 p.m., so I’m guessing that’s when I passed out.

And that is my random day. I’m just happy I made it through with a smile on my face. Gosh, Mondays can be so hard!

How was your Monday? Anyone have any fun Memorial Day weekend plans this upcoming weekend?

Weekend Recap #10

Happy Monday! I’m in the weirdest mood this morning and am excited to start this week. Maybe it was because I finally had a day off this weekend and had a spectacular event for work  yesterday. I’m not sure! Either way, I hope your Monday is off to a marvelous start as well. Linking up with Katie!

Friday was a pretty fun and quiet day at work. I went to lunch with two of my coworkers and then headed over to watch one of them be pied in the face. Not a bad way thing to watch happen to your supervisor. KIDDING. Still was funny, though. 😉

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I think the lady pieing him is having the most fun. 😉

After work on Friday, I went to dinner with my friend Brooke and her two daughters and then headed to the gym. The gym on a Friday? I KNOW. What is happening to me?

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I basically spent the night trying to figure out the machines that intimidate me the most and Snapchatting with a friend who kept being like, “I bet you could do 190 lbs” “Bet you can’t do 200”. You best believe I proved him wrong. Then I couldn’t walk, but that’s okay. I was right!

Saturday morning I got up around 8:30 and headed to the gym (I KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING) and then got all prettied up. It was supposed to be super nice out, so I took advantage and wore my maxi dress (again) but I don’t care because I love that thing. It’ll probably be in the rotation every week moving forward.

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After that, I met my sister at the movie theater to watch the Avengers! I was a little heartbroken that Loki wasn’t in it (yes, I understand he’s not an Avenger but … LOKI)

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At least I got Thor (and Captain America wasn’t looking too shabby).

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It was a spectacular movie, as expected.

After that, my sister and I headed to Chili’s for a late lunch where I ate my weight in chips and salsa. We then went to Target quick and headed back to my apartment after some errands and I convinced her to go for a walk with me.

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Of course, we spent too much time out there and by the time we got home I was starving, which ended in another bad meal of eats.

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I technically only had one piece of pizza, but I did have five breadsticks so …

Then GUESS WHO SHOWED UP TO HANG OUT WITH ME?!

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Only my best friend in the entire world, Michelle! 🙂 I knew she was coming, but she flew in for less than 48-hours to surprise her sister for her graduation and then was leaving super early on Sunday morning so she stayed with me. We chatted for a few hours before hitting the hay, but I’ll get to see her again in a little over a week before she moves to Hawaii! I also woke up to a love note from her, which was a great morning present as I got ready for my event on Sunday.

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I got up pretty early (5:45 – not as early as Michelle, though!) to get ready for my event on Sunday in Milwaukee.

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Sunday Morning

I was way more awake for 6:30 a.m. on a Sunday than I should’ve been.

My Mass & Brunch in Milwaukee went really well for work (the food was outstanding) and I got to see one of my favorite friends from the Milwaukee-area, Melissa!

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I then proceeded to convince her to go to a wedding with me later this month, so you’ll be seeing her on the blog again later. 🙂

We got home from Milwaukee around 3 and I took advantage of the 82 degree weather (WHAT?!) and took a walk outside for a little over an hour.

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Then headed over to the grocery store to pick up some “necessities” and somehow came out with two types of ice cream. I mean, really?

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The remainder of the night I spent eating some of that damn ice cream, watching YouTube subscriptions and trying to go to sleep early which did not happen because someone doesn’t know how to put down her phone (*ahemjessie*).

And that was my weekend! A little too much “indulgence” and unfortunately I’m up almost 2.5 lbs since Thursday – oof! Granted, I know a big chunk of that is probably from so much sodium and it’ll probably go down, but time to hop back on that train! I’m hoping to dedicate one day to talking about fitness / health related stuff. Would that still interest you guys? Wouldn’t be as in-depth as my AdvoCare reviews, but I figured it would keep me accountable!

Tell me something you did this weekend? Did you guys all enjoy the weather wherever you are?

Ever had one of those days?

Have you ever had one of those days? You know the ones. You just wake up on the wrong side of the bed and it already feels like the longest day ever?

That’s me today.

So what does that mean? Instead of holding all of these little feelings inside, I’m going to turn on some Backstreet Boys and word vomit these feelings out to you guys. I apologize in advance (for the post and for the disgusting image I probably gave you of word vomit).

I’m definitely one of those people that thinks to much (who, me?!) All of my friends that know me well are probably shaking their heads going, “Duh, Jessie.” Fortunately for all of you readers of mine, you might not fully know the capacity of that. My poor friends get the brunt of it via IM, SnapChat, text, Skype … I’m the worst.

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^^ My sister found that quote and I think it’s very suiting for both of us, just in different ways.

When I’m sad? I’m REALLY sad.
When I’m excited? Girl, you better watch out because I’m going to be bouncing all over the place.
When I’m in love? I’m head over heels.
When I’m mad? Get out the way.
When I’m scared? There’s no reasoning with me.
When I have a crush? I crush hard.

I know all of these things about myself and I don’t necessarily think they’re always a bad thing. I get to feel all things in ways that some people can’t and no one ever has to wonder how I’m feeling because trust me, you’ll know. Because I’m usually a pretty positive person, this “personality trait” of mine can be spectacular because I’m constantly smiling, dancing or bopping around to life.

But there’s also a flaw – I get hurt very easily and sometimes I can’t turn my brain off. Passive aggressive statements sting. Little off-comments you didn’t think I’d catch, I catch. Boys toying with my emotions gets me all in a tizzy. Since I’m one of those souls that can’t keep everything in otherwise I’ll explode (hence the blog), my friends get the brunt of it. I can tell when I’m annoying them. They tell me to just “let it go”, “don’t think so much”, “let things just happen” or “don’t worry about it” and I can try my damndest to do that, but it’s really hard for me. I’m naturally going to over-think that text. You can bet your butts I’m going to think way too far into the future. It’s hard to keep my feet planted on the ground.

I don’t know how many times I’ve said the words, “I wish my brain just had an off button – just for a minute.”

So anyways, this long-winded all over the place post comes up because a) I didn’t know what else to write about and this was on my mind and b) it’s something I’m “sort of” working on and “sort of” coming to terms with. Will I always be an over-thinker? Yep, probably. Will I always make things bigger than they need to be? Yep, probably. But that’s okay. Everyone has their little quirks, and that is one of mine.

Any other over-thinkers or over-feelers (is that a word??) out there? Or is it just little old me? 🙂

 

Weekend Recap #9

Good morning my sweet, sweet friends. How was your weekend? I’m hoping it was as fabulous as you all are.

Don’t mind the weird good mood – I somehow got up at 5:45 a.m. this morning after barely any sleep and worked out my legs at the gym. I’ll crash soon. In the meantime, linking up with with Katie.

My Friday ended up being a pretty fantastic day. After writing my Friday Favorites for the week, I booked it through work, trying to get as much done in the morning as possible since my weekend was full of events. I went home for lunch, only to find that my best friend Michelle sent me an AdvoCare care package – yea!

AdvoCare

There was also some Spark in the package, so it was probably the best thing I’ve gotten in the mail in awhile.

I was able to leave work a tiny bit early on Friday, so I headed out for a 2-mile walk and then somehow convinced myself to go to Biker Chicks (an all-female cycling class at my gym). I picked myself up some Chipotle and headed back home for the night. My hamstrings were KILLING me between the Tone It Up Daisy Duke’s workout I did the other day and the biker chicks class, so I spent the night cursing at my foam roller. I know, party animal – this one.

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The next morning I got up bright and early (okay, so at 8 a.m.) and headed into the gym for some arm/shoulder/back workouts before my event. On my way out, I stopped at the Herbalife stand in my gym (it’s never open when I’m there!) and got a Chocolate Cake Batter shake. Because duh.

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Calm the crazy eyes, Jessie.

Saturday I had our softball alumni day and it was C-O-L-D. It decided not to get above 48 and the wind was awful. The event turned out pretty well, though!

Softball Alumni Day

The best part of the day? Meeting this guy. My friend Brooke asked what the dog’s name was and when she said “Bubba” I was like, “of course it is.” Look at him! Totally a Bubba.

BubbaAfter the event (and saying good-bye to Bubba), Brooke and I headed back to our office and then met over at the gym to spend some quality time warming up in the steam room and the hot tub. Best. Idea. Ever! We then went back to her place, ate some dinner and watched a movie. My “clean eating” for the weekend did not happen, but you’ll see that whole breakdown on Thursday when I do my final thoughts on the AdvoCare 24-Day Challenge!

Sunday morning I woke up early again to head to the gym. This time I just did cardio – my TIU 5K split up between the treadmill, elliptical and stair master. Then I headed back to the fields for our baseball alumni day. The weather was much nicer (hence the nice little forehead sunburn I’m rockin’) and the stands were crazy full. It was a long weekend of work, but when I get multiple thank-yous from our alumni, it’s totally worth the hectic hours.

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After the event, I headed straight to Target for aloe for my forehead and walked out with $150 worth of stuff … but I remembered the aloe!

Target Haul

The funny part? I talked myself out of another dress, ha! I had three in my cart. Loving the maxi dresses at Target and I really needed a new swimming suit. Saturday in the hot tub was the first time I’ve worn a swimming suit (around other people) in almost three years and my suit isn’t the most flattering anymore, so I bought this black one! Still not 100% confident, but I’m getting there. 🙂 And the shoes because they’re sparkly – I don’t have to justify that.

Once I found out I didn’t have enough hangers for my clothes, I decided to go through some stuff that I never wear (you know, because who wants to buy new hangers??). Tried on all of my work pants and absolutely none of them fit. Good thing I wear a lot of dresses.

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Mind you, these pants have already been taken in by my mom and the entire back is elastic to try to make them fit. I think it’s about time I part ways with them.

Oh, and Oliver “helped”.

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And now we’re at today! I got up at 5:45, much to my body’s dismay …

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Let’s just always assume that my bed will never be made and not judge me for it, mmkay?

And now, let’s do this Monday! I’m wearing my new blue dress and new shoes today, even though it probably won’t even hit 60. Don’t care!

Monday

Are any of you fans of maxi dresses?
Who else got in trouble at Target this weekend?

Looking for a camera

Good morning, friends!

I’ve been on the hunt for a camera for a few weeks now. I used to be into photography when I was younger and (humbly) quite good at it. I’m definitely into scenery / landscape photography the most and I want to start getting back into a hobby that I used to love.

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Here’s the problem – I have no idea what to buy! I don’t want to spend hundreds and hundreds of dollars because 1) I don’t have that in my bank account and 2) I don’t think it’s necessary to take great photos. When I was in 4-H many many moons ago, I had a Nikon film camera that I lovvvved, but it was a gift so I didn’t pay for it. I’m looking for suggestions, so I’d love any help!

Must-haves:

1) High enough mexapixels (at least 16) so that I can have some of my photos printed and blown up to put on the wall
2) Good video capability so I can maybe actually start the YouTube channel I’ve been talking about for a year now
4) Will work better for blogging than just my grainy iPhone pics
3) Not going to make me broke for the rest of my life

Another reason I’m pushing to get a camera is because I go to Ireland in September, and I want to take pictures there (obviously), but I need the quality to be great so that I can blow some of the photos up once I get back. I have this HUGE wall at my apartment that’s just waiting to be filled with photos from Ireland – honestly that’s why I haven’t put anything on it yet! Plus I’d like one for my office at work.

I want to be able to take pics of this!

I want to be able to take pics of this!

I’ve heard people love Canons and I’m partial to Nikons (even though I’ve only had one … so I guess I can’t be partial), but let me know in the comments if you have any suggestions! Also, if you have any ideas for other things I should be looking for when buying a camera. It’s been so long and digital cameras are so much different than my film camera that I don’t even know what to look for anymore!

Sorry this post is a bit different than normal, but I figured bloggers probably would be great at helping me find a camera! 🙂