Weekend Recap: Parking tickets, weddings & puppy shopping

First of all, I can’t even begin to start writing a new post without thanking ALL of you that reached out to me about my latest blog post on body image. From comments on here to texts to snaps to Instagram … Thank you SO much. <3

Since I haven’t posted since then, I’ll let you know that I finally got my hair done on Thursday night. After a three-hour appointment, it’s changed a little (and I love it!)

Friday was another day at the new job – officially made it through week 1 and it was awesome! Overwhelming, but a MUCH better fit for me. I got out of work and took the train home (I’ve been walking most days, but it was raining) A few little money issues bumped their way into my brain, so by the time I got home, I was kind of cranky. Ben and I watched a puppy training video and then headed out to run some errands.

Unfortunately when I got to my car I had not one, but TWO $200 tickets ($400 each, in case you don’t want to do math ๐Ÿ˜‰ on my window for not having a city pass … something I was slightly aware of but it kept slipping my mind. After a few trips back and forth to a place that sells them (also can’t find my Illinois registration, which was not helpful), I dropped an additional $216 on a city pass for the next year + late fees. I got back in the car with Ben, who started silently driving to Target and … it happened. My first panic attack in a long, long time. Ben was able to calm me down (while he was driving – ugh) and we got into Target to grab a card and a few other random things. I felt a lot better, mostly because panic attacks take absolutely all emotion out of me.

Finally around 9:30 p.m., Ben and I both hadn’t eaten so we went to Whisk (normally our brunch favorite) and got some chicken and waffles for dinner.

After eating, we jumped back in the car … only to find a $50 parking ticket on the window. I just laughed, but Ben got super irritated (not with me). Basically an entire night of something / someone “hurting” me and he was about over it. We headed home and chilled for the rest of the evening while I paid my $450 in new bills all on the credit card (yay #teamnosavingsbecausepoor)

Saturday I ended up sleeping in until 11 (much needed) and then got ready to head to Madison for one of my cousin’s wedding.

The wedding was small, but tons of fun to see a bunch of my family that I rarely see. They all loved Ben, obviously. ๐Ÿ™‚

On Sunday, Ben and I headed out in the morning to get some puppy shopping done. We get our babe in a little less than three weeks!

After that, we walked to Lillie Q’s for brunch.

Once we finished up there (OMG SO GOOD) we headed to Starbucks so I could get some client work done. After a few hours there (and almost throwingย my laptop out the window) Ben and I headed to Best Buy where I picked up a small Chromebook. I’d much rather have a Macbook Pro or Air, but that’s just not in the budget right now. I loved playing around with it last night, so hopefully it’ll help me out! Unfortunately this wasn’t something I could wait on since I have clients now for my business and I can’t be spending a ton of time just trying to get my computer to boot.

The rest of the evening Ben and I set up our pup’s new space, cooked up some food for the week (because my stove isn’t working …) and vegged as much as possible. And now we’re on to Monday and week 2 at the new job! I’m actually writing this quick on my lunch break because I didn’t have time yesterday.

How was your weekend?

I Hate The Way I Look

*breathes deeply*

Alright, let’s talk about this subject.

I hate the way I look.

Let’s not even sugar coat that.

My body image has basically plummeted the last few months andย all I see is fat. Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat. Big fat failure.

That’s what I see.

I don’t think this will surprise any of you that have read week after week of “failing” during my IIFYM posts I do.

I’ve gained about 6-7 pounds since my most comfortable(ish) weight. I tried to convince myself that I was just stressed. Or gaining muscle. Or enjoying life. Or getting used to things. Or struggling with hypothyroidism. Or struggling with an eating disorder.ย I can keep going if you’d like to hear all of my excuses. ๐Ÿ˜‰

For any of you that have struggled with being overweight in the past (or any type of insecurity – not for me to judge) you know that sometimes you’ll put on your “fat girl glasses” and that’s all I can see. I see myself at my heaviest weight that’s still 30+ lbs heavier than I am right now, but I see her. I see that girl. And I thought I got rid of her.

And that’s where the problem is. I never “got rid of her” – she is ME.

I was Jessie at 115 lbs growing up when my cheerleading coach told me I was too fat for the uniform and I most definitely wasn’t.

I was Jessie at 165 lbs, my most unhealthy weight after college.

I was Jessie at 122 lbs when I got home from Hawaii, had been restricting myself for months and looked super skinny (which is not the way I want to look, btw).

I was Jessie at 128 lbs in Charleston, feeling a bit bloated from stomach issues, but happy and strong.

I’m Jessie now at 134 lbs, feeling gross.

I’m actually currently sitting on my couch in a bra and underwear because it’s so hot and I keep picking at my bloated stomach and flabby side butt. Yesterday I cried to my boyfriend about feeling so badly about how I look. I cried in a dressing room a few weeks ago because of how I looked. I cried yesterday because I couldn’t believe I “let myself go”.

This is all such bullshit.

I’ve work SO hard for my body and yes, I’ve fallen off the wagon and have been basically been pulled behind that wagon, kicking and screaming for the last four months. No, I will not meet my goal of being 125 lbs by June, which has been my goal since January.

And then there’s Instagram. And YouTube. And my boyfriend’s clients. And my boyfriend, who always has a six pack. There’s so many ways to get into an extremely unhealthy mindset comparing yourself to others. Instead of looking at a girl and thinking she’s beautiful, I now look at a girl, think she’s beautiful and wonder why I can’t look like that. How shitty is that?!

I really don’t have a point to this blog post (if you haven’t figured that out already). All I know is that I’m tired of feeling like crap about myself. I’m tired of binge-eating and hiding it so that no one knows. I’m tired of seeing myself in the mirror and feeling disgusted. I’m tired of not wanting my boyfriend to touch my stomach. I’m tired of rolling my eyes when he or someone else tells me I’m pretty.


Yes, I want to lose weight. Yes, I want to get back to a point where I feel prettyย and strong. But no matter how much weight I lose or bloat that goes away or muscle that pops through. The real focus needs to be on getting my self-confidence back up to a healthy space. THAT’S what’s important. Now I just need to figure out where to start.

Okay, sorry for the lack of photos but I honestly don’t take them anymore because I’m never “feelin’ myself”. I wrote this post a couple days ago as a way to let off some steam and I had no intention of publishing it, but I feel like I need to.

Have you ever experienced something like this? What do you do to get past it? Help a girl out.ย 

(PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THE WEIGHT PERSONALLY. I tried to write this without the weight and it just didn’t flow. I’m not saying you’re fat if you’re over 165 lbs. I’m not saying you’re skinny if you’re under 125 lbs. This is literally me pouring out my heart to you, even though I *know* it’s completely me being too hard on myself. xoxo)

Workout Wednesday: IIFYM Week #13

Phew – this week (aka the last two days) has been KILLER. I’m so tiredddddd, but time to talk about my last week or so in workouts.

Workout Wednesday

… They sucked and this has just become ridiculous. I need to figure something out. I’m actually scheduling a meeting with a dietitian soon. My overeating issues (I hate calling it binge eating … so I don’t … but that’s basically what it is) are back and as much as I love my boyfriend, he can he thousands (literally) more calories than me so it’s a struggle. Relationships make diets hard!

I was on point last Wednesday, but Thursday came and I definitely overate (in “celebration” for leaving my job). Then Friday came and I ate very few calories during the day, then went out to eat with my sister and then got extremely sick. Saturday I was extremely sick to my stomach ALL day. Sunday I was starving so I ate probably more than I should. Monday – overrate. Tuesday… probably ate close to my calories but didn’t count. UGH.

Now, I know this isn’t the end of the world, but my goal in JANUARY was to be under a certain weight by June 1. And it wasn’t an astronomical weight. And I’m UP instead. ๐Ÿ™ Yes, yes, yes, I know weight doesn’t mean everything and I’d love to pretend it’s because I’m gaining muscles … but I’m not… it’s fat. Yes, it is more difficult for me to lose weight because of my hypothyroidism, but I lost 40 lbs at one point … I can drop weight if I try, but I have to be extremely consistent. Okay, moving on …

These were a bit all over the place, but my life kind of went crazy. I didn’t workout on Thursday, but I did on Friday. Didn’t on Saturday, but did on Sunday. Didn’t on Monday, but did on Tuesday … so ๐Ÿ™‚ Also, I started at a new gym, so that’s exciting!

Workout at FFC Union Station

How it’s going:
Again, I’m not being consistent, so it’s all over the place. I’ll actually be writing a post on Thursday that’s a bit more in depth about how I’m feeling about my body. And it will be honest.

I haven’t weighed myself in a few weeks because I know I’m up in weight and I don’t want it to mess with my head. I plan to weigh myself on Thursday, though, just so I stop pretending like it’s not happening haha!

What do you do when you KEEP falling off track?

Weekend Recap: Graduation Weekend!

Hey friends! Happy Monday. I mean, technically I’m writing this on Sunday, but I’m hoping it’s a happy Monday for you so far.

I’m actually starting my new job at 10 a.m. on Monday, so hopefully I haven’t passed out from nervousness or gotten on the wrong train …

So back to the weekend!

On Thursday, I left my job around noon for the last time. I stopped at Qdoba to take myself to a going away lunch since I didn’t get one of those through work (it’s been a rough two weeks …) but as I was checking out, Ben texted me and told me he wanted to take me to lunch in the city as a celebration! So sweet.

We went to El Barco and as you can see in the photo above, I had a very large margarita (that ended up making me feel awful for the rest of the day (oops) and some fajitas.

After lunch, I headed back to Ben’s place with him. He got some work done and I napped/played on Instagram until he had to leave for his afternoon clients. The rest of the night consisted of just chilling – watching YouTube, playing around on Instagram and eating my earlier Qdoba I had bought for lunch. Thankfully I like Mexican food!

On Friday I woke up with Ben for his clients and hung around my place getting things done until meeting him at the gym to get in an upper body workout around 9:30. After that, I walked to a new gym close to my new office (attached to the building actually) for a new member experience tour and ended up signing up with them! It wasn’t a bad walking view …

Okay, Chicago. ๐Ÿ˜

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After the tour, I headed BACK to Ben’s gym (about a 3-mile walk round trip) and met him to quick eat some protein bars (#IIFYMLifeWhenYouForgetFood) and then we walked to the movie theater over near Michigan Ave. to see Guardians of the Galaxy 2 – which was AMAZING by the way. BABY GROOT IS THE BEST.

We got out of the movie around 3:45 and had to walk back to Ben’s gym to pick up our bags, then walked home. I’d say in all I probably walked well over 5-miles on Friday! Which was probably a great idea, because I hopped my butt in the car around 4:45 to head up to Green Bay and sat in traffic / drove a LONG distance for well over 4-hours.

Once in Green Bay, I picked up my sister and we headed over to Chili’s for dinner. Unfortunately I got extremely sick as soon as I ate and ended up being a party pooper the rest of the night. But I did get to see my cat, Oliver, that Jenny kept when I moved! And of course I took millions of pictures of him on Snapchat (JustJessie23) butttt I didn’t save any of them.

After very little sleep on Friday, Jenny and I woke up on Saturday, ran out to get some coffee and then got ready for the day because she GRADUATED!

I wasn’t feeling well all day, but we all went to get lunch/dinner around 3 and I was incredibly sick to my stomach. After dinner, I headed back to Chicago. Thankfully by the time I got home I was feeling better, but I’ve got to figure out these stomach issues. To start, Ben suggested cutting coffee out since it seems every day I get sick, I’ve had coffee. I don’t think that’ll be too difficult since I can get my caffeine from soda (although I want to cut that out at some point as well) but we’re going to cut it out for a month and see what happens.

Sunday morning was a little bit of a lie-in for Ben and I before he left to go to the suburbs to spend the day with his family for Mother’s Day. I actually walked all the way to my new gym (about a 40-minute walk which isn’t bad – I love walking) to get in a short lower body workout that I missed on Saturday.

Workout at FFC Union Station

There was barely anyone there (well, because I got there at 2 and they close at 3) so I was able to bumble around and figure my way out. I did get in some deadlifts, sumo squats and back extensions, though.

Chicago, IL

After working out, I walked around and found a Chipotle since I hadn’t eaten yet. After Chipotle, I decided to stop being a chicken shi*, found a train nearby that I can take and hopped on. And guess what? I did it right! You have no idea how proud of myself I was. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Once I got home, there was a fiesta happening in my alleyway so I grabbed my computer and headed to SB. And no coffee – just a pink drink. ๐Ÿ™‚

Pink Drink at Starbucks

I left SB around 5:30, came home and ate the rest of my Chipotle from lunch (and about 12000 cookies – whoops). I watched a bunch of YouTube videos, did the dishes, did laundry and filled out my planner. I also packed a bag for Monday so that I could get in a workout before my first day!

Unfortunately the alley-party didn’t stop until quite late. Since I live in a coach house (pretty “normal” style apartments in Chicago) which means I live behind a normal house, my place is in an alley and backs up to a bunch of other houses. I finally got used to the alley noise, but having people parking their cars in the alley and blasting music until the late evening is a bit much. Maybe I’m old? Either way, Ben got home around 11 p.m. and they still hadn’t stopped. Itย was a Sunday, people! Thankfully I move in with Ben in a few months and while he does have some noisy neighbors, right now my apartment definitely has the nosiER neighbors. Okay, rant over. Maybe I’m just being a cranky geriatric, but there’s got to be some neighborhood cut off time for loud parties, right? Or is this just what I signed up for moving to Chicago? ๐Ÿ˜‰ Maybe I’d feel better if they would’ve shared some of their chips and salsa …

So send some well wishes my way – I’m definitely feeling nervous for my first day (and tired…), but I’m very hopeful that it’ll be the right fit for me for this part of my life. Talk to you all soon!

How was your weekend?

Workout Wednesday: IIFYM Week #12

Wednesday = checkin’ in with all of you on my training!

Workout Wednesday

My macros were incredibly off last week (which I kind of touched on in last week’s post). Basically I didn’t truly track all week.ย I had quite a few dinners with friends, drinks for a going away party (and I swear drinking makes me binge eat sometimes – ugh) and then I was at a fit expo on Saturday and barely ate until almost 4. Then we were in Milwaukee, so the excuses are flowing. HOWEVER, I’ve been on point Monday and Tuesday and I’ll be on point today since I’ve already prepped all my meals. I’ll try to stay on track the best I can this weekend, but it’ll be difficult to stay within my exact macros. Tomorrow is my last day at work (THANK GOD) and then this weekend I’m off to Green Bay for Friday night-Saturday for my sister’s graduation. Since my calories are pretty low, even as a flexible dieter if I want to stay on track, it’s difficult since I don’t have a ton of room to play with. BUT I will try my best because my motivation is back.

Going well! We skipped on Saturday (which sucks because it’s usually my favorite workout) because we went to watch the power lifting meet, but that’s the only workout I missed! I actually just signed up for a call with a new gym in Chicago since I won’t be able to use the gym at work after tomorrow (duh). This new gym has multiple locations so I’m hoping it’ll work to go either before or after work at my new job. I’ll still be working out on Friday in the morning with Ben, but won’t get in my workout on Saturday. I’m hoping to try out the new gym on Sunday when I get home, so maybe I’ll get in the workout then!

How’s it going:
You know, it’s been a little rough. I definitely struggled with eating last week – I don’t know if my body was just in a funk or what, but I had a fewย struggles withย extreme overeating. And then I felt SO guilty about it. Something seemed to snap this weekend, though. I’m feeling much better this week, much more motivated to stay on track as best I can and hopeful that my body will continue to change the way I want it to. I need aย talking to in being too hard on myself, so it something I recognize and I’m working on it. 30lbs heavier me would LOVE this body I have and that’s something to remember!

I actually refused to weigh myself last week because my thoughts were already damaging enough so it wasn’t worth focusing on a stupid number on the scale. I was extremely bloated last week and had stomach issues due to all the overeating and going out to eat. I’m feeling a bit more on track this week – still a little bloated (I feel like I’m always bloated, though) but feeling much better. My mindset is WAY more important than the stupid number on the scale.

Also, I did buy myself two more pairs of the Gymshark flex leggings because HELLO —> they’re extremely comfortable and flattering.

Dat @gymshark ๐Ÿ‘ contour doe. ๐Ÿ‘€ โ€ข Granted, I’ve already got junk in da trunk, but a little contour never hurt anyone. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ May or may not have ordered two more pair of these leggings … ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ™ˆ โ€ข Apart from booty posing, I actually got in a kickass (PUNS) workout today. Only two more days at this gym until my job is over, so I need to kick it into gear and find a new one. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ The next few weeks are nuts, but I’m (re)committing to my goals and trying to nix some of the bad body image issues I’ve been having lately. ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿผ Only way to do that is to work hard, right? Right. โ€ข Now please excuse me while I go make myself nachos because #IIFYM is THE best. ๐Ÿ™

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And that’s my check in! How has your week been?

Coffee Date

Let’s have a coffee date, shall we?

I just read Jordyn’s latest blog (she’s the best by the way – love her blog!) and it inspired me to write a coffee date style post today as well. I feel like I’ve told you bits and pieces of news the past few weeks, but it’s all over the place (as are the frequency of my posts) so let’s just get it all in one area, how about that? Here’s mah face and a coffee so I can prove that I constantly spend a lot of money on coffee and would go on a coffee date with ANY of y’all in a heartbeat.

Coffee Date

I got a new job!

Okay, probably the most important of “news” (LIES, the next one will be) but just in case you didn’t understand it from my Instagram posts, Snapchat (Are you following me? @justjessie23), carrier pigeon, screaming it into the smoggy air of Chicago – I HAVE A NEW JOB!

As you may (or may not, if you don’t read my posts very often …) know, I haven’t exactly been loving my job that I moved to Chicago for in January. I struggled with a three+ hour commute per day only to sit at my desk alone with not much to do, no matter how much I asked. It just wasn’t the right fit for me. I’m all about culture – getting to know my coworkers, seeing smiling people, seeing the outside of the world instead of cube land – and that just wasn’t what I was getting. I knew it wasn’t the right fit after my first day. I came home, hysterically crying to my poor, smiling boyfriend who was trying to figure out wtf was happening to me. It continued to get worse and I continued to feel badly about wanting out so quickly. Finally after months of depressing, anxiety-ridden Sundays anticipating my week, I started looking for options that would be better for me and SOMEHOW it came along quite quickly!

I’ll be working as a Community Manager for a local Chicago tech startup and I’m so excited. I’m equally terrified, but I think that’s a good thing. They offer things like unlimited PTO, CTA passes, lunches with colleagues and bright, open collaborative areas to work. Definitely more my style. PLUS the platform they have is amazing and I can’t wait to learn the ins and outs of it soon. I do foresee it being one of the most challenging jobs I’ve ever had, but I’m ready for it.

We’re getting a puppy!

I thought I was obvious about this one, BUT multiple people have been surprised when I told them. They assumed the puppy pictures on my blog/Instagram were just me filling my life with puppy time since I have such dog fever. FAIR.

I grew up adopting animals, but we did purchase one purebred golden retriever when I was in middle school that was my show dog. Without getting into politics, Ben and I did decide to purchase our first dog and she’ll be coming to us on June 10! Well, really we’ll be going to her – four hours from here to pick her up. I don’t know which one is ours yet (they’re only ~four weeks old) and since we put the last deposit in on a girl, we’ll get last choice. But really … I’ll take any of them. THEY’RE SO CUTE. Plus, seeing Ben with a bunch of puppies? You know how some women feel when they see their BF with children? I’m that way with puppies. My puppy ovaries almost exploded. Although I will be incredibly jealous if the pup loves him more than me. ๐Ÿ™

May-June is nutso!

Last weekend – MKE
5/12-5/13 – Green Bay for my sister’s college graduation
5/15 – Start new job!
5/20 – Cousin’s wedding in Madison
5/26-5/31 – Memorial Day weekend in Wisconsin at Ben’s grandparents
6/2-6/5 – Nashville for a wedding
6/10 – PUP

Side hustle is moving again!

After putting my own business to the side a bit in the last month or so due to stress/applying and interviewing for new jobs, I’m finally back at it! I have a proposal to finish for a company outside of Milwaukee that might have me do work for them occasionally and I recently landed my PERFECT client that I’m so excited to start working with. I’ve decided that I want to continue to grow my blog and YouTube channel (though they’ve been on hold since my mom’s computer that I’ve been borrowing shuts down once every … oh, 30 seconds …) and then offer my virtual assistance and social media management services. So excited to have the time (lack of a three-hour commute helps) and brainpower to be able to get back into doing the things that I love.

P.S. Speaking of ladies with side hustles, check these twoย out:
– Writing/Editing/All Things Wordsmithing: Marette @ Floradise
– Styling/Telling You What To Wear Because You Suck At It (AKA ME): Maddy @ Cassidy Lou

Okay, I’ll stop there. This is why my coffee dates with friends end up being four-hour excursions. ๐Ÿ˜‰

What’s happening in your life?

Weekend Recap: The Weekend I Forgot to Take Pictures

Good morning and happy Monday! It’s officially my LAST week at my current job, and while it’s going to be a trying week, I’m excited it’s finally here. I celebrated by waking up late, forgetting to put on makeup and buying myself an overpriced coffee – woohoo!

Also, apologies for the lack of blogs lately. I promise I will get back on track!

So, last Thursday I worked downtown with my client for the last time. ๐Ÿ™ It was also my friend’s last day with the company as well, so after work we headed over to a bar for a drink or two to celebrate. She’s the girl that somehow takes incredible candids of me … like this:

Friday I ended up working from home. It ended up being a slightly busy day, even though Fridays are usually pretty dead. I got in an upper body workout with Ben …

Boomerangin’ into the weekend ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿผโ€โ™‚๏ธ

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I spent the rest of the afternoon working and then logged off around 5:30. We made some last minute plans with Ben’s friends to get Korean BBQ (I don’t remember the name of the place) and then proceeded to eat about 500 lbs of protein each. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Saturday morning started off pretty early and we took off to the Fit Expo in one of the suburbs to watch Ben’s cousin compete in a power lifting competition. It ended up being an all day adventure (and Andrew won – woo!) before we took off for home to quickly throw together an outfit to get BACK in the car to head to Milwaukee.

Once in MKE, we hung out with my friend Saige & Joel, then met up with Heather & Josh (#tripledate) at Wolf Peach – an amazing restaurant in Milwaukee. HIGHLY recommend. After dinner we headed over to Comedy Sportz, an improv comedy show that’s only $10 – soooo worth it! Then back to Saige’s for house.

Ben & Jessie - Comedy Sportz

On Sunday, Joel, Saige, Ben & I headed over to a brunch spot called Story Hill BKC and it was spectacular. I didn’t take any pictures, but Ben did.

After brunch, Ben and I headed back to Chicago for the rest of the day. I had a killer headache, so we chilled out at my apartment for the night – made spaghetti, watched Harry Potter and went to bed later than we should have. BUT the puppy breeder did send me a new picture! ๐Ÿ™‚

Golden Retriever

And now it’s Monday! Thursday is my last day this week, so the rest of the week I’ll basically be passing things off to other people! And celebrating come Thursday at 5 p.m. – woohoo!

How was your weekend?

Workout Wednesday: IIFYM Week #11

It’s Wednesday, so you know what that means!

Workout Wednesday

My macros have NOT been on point, to say the least. I’m trying to get back on track, though! Gosh, I have been a struggle bus!

My workouts have been pretty on point. I did skip on Monday due to some work stress, but otherwise they’ve been pretty good. I’m excited to get a gym outside of my job so that I can love it again, instead of hate going there.

How’s it going:
It’s going okay … though my small over-eating issue has popped it’s ugly head up again. Just working through it. Very grateful that my boyfriend is a fitness/health coach and can help me with this stuff!

I actually lost about 1.5 lbs., but I’m thinking I’m back up again – we’ll see when I weigh myself on Friday. Weight aside, I’m feeling a bit bloated from all the sodium, but my arms are looking great! Eh?

ย  How was your week?

Weekend Recap: PUPPIES

Happy Monday! Thank you all for the kind words on Instagram / my blog on Friday regarding my new job!! So excited. But let’s just jump into this recap. ๐Ÿ™‚

So, on Thursday night I ended up getting dinner with Marette at Hutch – we both had fish tacos and I really loved it!

Hutch Chicago

It was so great catching up with Marette and having some girl time! Especially since I had just put in my notice, so I was needing a distraction.

Friday ended up being a pretty chill day working from home. My boss finally responded to my resignation (not nicely), but I still made it through the day. However, toward the end of the day I started researching puppy breeders and made an appointment with one! (more on that later …) Friday night Ben and I cooked some more Hello Fresh together, then drove out to the suburbs for his hockey game. I ended up being the only one in the stands, but I love supporting him, even if I’m by myself.

Saturday morning I woke up with Ben (he had to train, as always), did a few chores around my place and then took a nap – HA! ๐Ÿ™‚ I met up with him at the gym at 12:30 and met one of his old clients that was in the city for a chat before we worked out lower body. OH and I also got in my Gymshark order on Friday that I’m obsessed with (you’d see that on my Instagram stories if you were following meeeee)

Gymshark Flex Leggings

Ben and I got in some deadlifts, squats and lunges before calling it a day and heading home to get some stuff done. He ended up coming over later in the afternoon and we just hung out at my place while he worked. Super chill night because we had a long day on Sunday!

So Sunday we woke up and got ready to go to western Wisconsin to check out PUPPIES! It was about a four hour drive there, but totally worth it!

Our new baby will be coming to us in June! They’re only around three-weeks right now ๐Ÿ™‚ We’ve got a few girl names picked out (Cora and Abby being our top picks) and I’m so excited!

The rest of the night is irrelevant (AKA we drove a lot, then went to bed)!

Linking up with Katie.ย 

May Goals + April Hits and Misses (and a surprise …)

Yay, May! We’re getting SO close to summer, I’m so excited! We’ve had some wonderful weather days here in Chicago and I’m hoping it continues into May. Granted, there has been a lot of rain, though.

Anyway, enough with the weather small-talk. *rolling eyes emoji*

Time for some May Goals! To see my April Goals, go here.

May Goals | Just Jessie

Let’s look back at April!

What went SUPER well …
Walk more. I’ve been walking more around the city and at work lately, just because the weather is better. It’s been so nice plus it’s saving money.
–ย Read/Listen to two books in April and write a blog post about it. Done! Did you read my post from yesterday?
–ย Try not to let people mess with my head so much.ย This one went well. I think it helped that I found a work friend. ๐Ÿ™‚

What went pretty well …
– Enjoy time with family and friends.ย Done, minus the family part. I didn’t get to go home for Easter due to an interview (SAY WHAT) so that’s why I’m putting this in the “okay” category.
Work on self-love. Ben has helped me with this a lot. See Wednesday’s post.ย 
Book one freelance/contract position. I really tried on this one. I even had an interview! But it didn’t pan out and then I was focused on full-time interviews (JESSIE, WHAT AREN’T YOU TELLING US) so it fell off. Still a plan of mine, though!
–ย Talk with Ben about what weโ€™re grateful for every day.ย Started this, then fell off the wagon. We are pretty good at communication, though, just sucked at the formal “What were you grateful for today” convos.

What didn’t happen …
Unfortunately April kind of fell off due to interviews (…) so I didn’t hit as many goals as I’d like to.
–ย Add cardio in.ย We cut my calories instead. Does walking more around Chicago count?
–ย Research hypothyroidism and ways to help.ย Totally forgot, honestly. They upped my medication and I’ve been feeling LOADS better, so just forgot!
–ย Work out a plan for how much I need to make/how many clients I need to be able to afford a sustainable lifestyle.ย Again, interviews took over my brain.
–ย Write down my โ€œdream lifeโ€ and read it every day.ย I need to do this!
–ย Work on finding sponsorships or opportunities for my blog.ย Seriously, why do I suck at this so bad! I’ve had a few companies reach out, but they want me to review their product that 1) I’ve never tried, 2) they aren’t providing to me AND 3) They aren’t paying me for. So, no.
–ย  Try yoga and/or meditation.ย I mean, I’ve talked with Marette about taking a class. Does that count?

May 2017 Goals

Health & Fitness Goals:
Find a new gym downtown. I won’t be needing my gym at my job in the suburbs anymore …
Continue work on self-love. The talk of cellulite, stretch marks and being bloated needs to stop coming out of my mouth.
Remember why I used to love working out and get back on that train. I’ve just been off recently. I’m still working out, but rarely “loving” it. I need to get that back because I do love it. It’s just been a stressful few months!
Lose 3-5 lbs by June 1. Putting up the official numbers this time!

Business & Financial Goals:
Start new job on May 15, final day at old job on May 10. WHAT!!!! Oh yes. Yo girl got a new job with a young start-up downtown that’s growing MASSIVELY and I’m so excited. I love their product and I’m excited to be their new Community Manager. I DID IT!!! (I’m writing this as I sit at my desk freaking out about having to tell my boss I’m leaving after only 3.5 months, though.)
Start coaching with Amy again (we took a month off), regain focus on side hustle. Yes, I got a new job but I want to continue with moving toward a side hustle. While I’m not as desperate to make this full-time ASAP since I’m planning to enjoy my new job, I would still like to broaden my side hustle, make a little extra cash, and hopefully have location freedom in the future. This was my main focus for so long because I hated my current job (I would cry every Sunday, no joke) so now I can look at it as something I enjoy again, instead of something I have to run after like a crazy woman.
Get settled at my new job, write a new day in the life post. So excited for this. ๐Ÿ™‚
Set aside money for upcoming fun things. Ben and I are planning on getting a dog (!!!!!!) and moving in together around September. I just want to try to start saving now. We’re also planning a trip to San Diego in early September if possible.

Life Goals:
Spend time in Green Bay with my sister and family. My sister graduates college in a few weeks and I’ll be spending some time there!
Start cooking more with Ben. Ben and I have been trying Hello Fresh and it was so fun! We both tend to get in a rut with our “rice, meat, vegetables” meals and we rarely eat together except on weekends since we don’t live together. It’s been fun and we really enjoy it. Ben loves cooking – half the time I just sit there watching. Not bad. ๐Ÿ˜‰
Drink more water. I’ve been struggling with this SO much. I know I’ll struggle at the new job, so time to make that a goal!
Go Spring shopping. I did get a few random things at H&M when Saige was in town, but Ben and I both need to get some summer clothes!
Start writing love story with Ben. SERIOUSLY.

What are your goals this month?